Ok Men I have sold my site to RAD VIDEO they will be managing my site from now on. That just means that they will do all orders from now on through TYSONCANEVIDEOS.COM
First let me say that I can't thank RAD VIDEO enough for taking that part of my day/life over. I really didn't know what I was doing and I would get so paralyzed with fear with doing something wrong that I tended to avoid the site and not maintain it at all. I tried to hire people at one time but they would either think I was just some kid who didn’t know what I wanted and tell me some kind of bull shit story or they where to controlling and didn't want to listen to me, any which way I didn't have a good control on the site and I want to apologize for failing at that for you guys. I work hard to do a good job. I did however learn something I cannot have total control over everything I have to let some things go. I should have let that part of my business go a long time ago. RAD VIDEO did ask me for one thing to keep going with the BLOG. O how happy I was when they said that one. I am not a writer; they said I could not hire anyone they would know. So here goes. You respond or don’t is not a reflection on my writing skills. (Which suck big time) At least that is what they tell me. LOL I kill me.
Ok I am here in Miami Beach Florida. It was a long lonely weekend another one. No one is here, my assistant didn’t want to come I think he is going to quite. I knew that when I first hired him that he would not stay in this business long. There is a stigma with this industry that not everyone will be able to handle, and then there is me my personality is not that best people person in the world. It is so weird being here by my self no maid no one is here. I am living in an one bedroom two story-building walk up. it is a far cry different then my New York apartment I wanted to get back to the basic’s I think I was loosing site of what the every day gay man goes through. I mean I don’t like to be alone at all and I see that now I m waken by maid then I get up we usually talk she is such a interesting person it is funny her sex life/ dating life is more interesting then mine, also to top it off she is not young. Which makes it worse, she always says that I tend to hide out in my work because I am too scared to date, I always reply with don’t you have something to clean. Then my assistant comes in and his sex/dating life makes me a virgin. (And no I do not ask them to tell me there sex life they tend to tell me I do ask some question some times that opens the door maybe I shouldn’t do that, I love to ask questions.) I hate silence when I am alone I either have the TV on blaring or the radio, until someone comes in. It is very rare that I would be alone.) However, I am alone now. It has been hard to this I actually was bad boy years ago to much drugs sex and spending way too much money on things I didn’t need. Yes I said drugs. I am not insistent. I figured if I am going to do this I am only going to tell the truth. So yes I was bad a couple of weeks ago. Since I have a roommate in New York I stopped that life style along time ago. It was the loneliness I hate being alone. With me not working for someone to report to is worse but I am not a kid anymore it is not the same as it was when I was a kid I could do a ex on a Friday Saturday be up and ready to work the day. Well let me tell you these old bones they said o hell no I was in bed for two days my god the drugs these days they want to knock you out I don’t know the fuck they want. What ever it is it is not for me anymore. I am too old for that. So what I did was to stop was I got a GYM trainer down here I told him my situation and what I need from him for help and that is working. I have to say this I am looking pretty good I don’t like saying that, however, feeling and I looking like I might want to shoot my next film. The script I am writing is about a guy who is very rich and is scared to leave his apartment and all his entire sex life is people that work him. That is the first part of the story. It does go on. I can’t say too much it is pretty good. So good I am thinking of taking the lead role. I think I can pull it off. I wish I could tell you more it is so good there are a lot of turns to this movie so it will be part 1 and 2 and more I am even thinking of asking VIPER if he would do a scene with me. I am little scared I might have to do scenes over and over and over again. Just to get it right. I don’t know if he will say yes over the years we have become friendly not friends but he picks up when I call and if you know him that is a big deal. I don’t know I am just thinking maybe I should have someone else play my part. I don’t know. Only time will tell.
Ok it is getting late it is 1:00pm I should get out of bed and go to the gym latter boys. See you on screen. LOL I kill me. I should do stand up